Sunday June 21 2015 10:00 am

It is hard to put Bette’s corporeal end days in a corner of my mind and go to it if I need to though why would I want to do that when it hurts so much. Now it comes to mind without rhyme or reason and takes me down for the count.

During Bette’s last hospitalization her body tried so hard to overcome what was to become the inevitable and she will for ever be an inspiration to me and I hope others. Her primary doctor said to me about a week after Bette passed into the Spirit World, she easily could have succumb during her first hospitalization of nine months ago.

Since her Melanoma diagnosis of several years ago and then followed the need for a heart defibrillator  Bette had been dealing with fear, anxiety and depression. Without a doubt we were happy to have the Melanoma diagnosed early and the surgery was successful and happy to have the defibrillator as an ‘insurance policy’. In spite of the odds seemingly in our favor some days the horizon was not as far off in the distance as we would want it to be.

I wonder sometimes where she got the strength to take on the battles that started August 27 2014.

To be honest the idea of dying never occurred to Bette.

Bette’s last corporeal three weeks, she may have known something was ‘up’ but before her consciousness succumbed to her body’s decline she did not bring up death. We remained positive and prayed.

I certainly wasn’t going to bring it up. There had been a couple close calls in the past nine months and why not another one. Why not another one!

I cry and know I have to stop writing for now but one last and very important behavior of Bettes’.

Every person; cleaning services ,food services, physical therapy, respiratory,  phlebotomist, radiology, personal care assistant, nurse, doctor—they all, every day, got a smile from Bette.

Often she would say to the health care team “You do what you have to do to get me better”

I can’t wait to see Bette and tell her again how incredibly proud I was of her and how inspired by her will to live!

But of course she knows now.

Love you all