The last film Bette and I watched together before being admitted to hospital was a Nicholas Sparks movie and if she had known she couldn’t have planned it better. Bette loves and loved anything having to do with romance.     (Jesus, that hurts)

As C.S. Lewis said in “A Grief Observed” a memory is like a “red-hot jab”

John says ‘it hurts when I think that; what can I do?’

Bette says ‘stop thinking that.’

Shortly after we purchased the Saturn Bette and I decided to take a road trip to Miami Florida – early 2000’s. As Bette said and or sung numerous times on the way down “Going to Miami!” We talked about the trip being a deal breaker with regard to our relationship and needless to say everything went well and we had the best time. We got a kick out of South Beach and Bette found it cool to be walking by some famous clothes designer’s house. She knew who it was but now I don’t remember.

It is really hard writing today—I just don’t want to believe our time on earth is over, at least for now. I miss her so very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you all